Part 5-Love Letters to Life
I think it’s pretty common to think about death as we get older and even when we’re younger, after having children. Of course no parent can fathom anything happening to their child but I also remember fearing something happening to me and not being able to be there to protect my kids as they grew. Thankfully most of those entertained thoughts were fairly fleeting but I definitely recall have anxiety over it and ALL the things I have no control over. I suppose being in the Fire Service and dealing with life and death every shift keeps the reality of human fragility close to the surface, although the thick skin we have to grow works for a while, there are always “those” calls that linger and rattle around in the brain when it’s least expected. The sights, the smells and the sounds of patients that seem to peer through the eyes of my own children. The highlight of every shift is coming home to their shining faces and the necessary reminder that we still have the gift of time to share with each other. It truly is priceless and goes far too fast.
Easter is such a big symbol of death and resurrection and the measure of what a purposeful life can mean. I dont make New Years Resolutions, however I do think it’s fitting to do a reassessment of my own life, on or around my birthday every year. I may be a year older but am I a year wiser….that’s the goal. I firmly believe one should always continue learning and setting new goals, regardless of age. I can’t imagine not having passion and curiosity for my own life. I want to know that I’ve done enough, that I’ve given all that I can.
I know that one day I’ll be a distant memory but as I take my last breath I want to know that I’ve lived and loved and cherished every moment in between. I don’t think it’s possible to fully live if there is a nagging fear of death looming over every action or inaction we do. I also don’t think it’s possible to fully live if we’re oblivious to death either. Somewhere there is a balance that allows us the freedom to live joyously and be at peace with what’s beyond the veil of this life. Whatever beliefs, traditions or faith, I think it’s safe to say that this messy, intricate thing called life is pretty spectacular and such a precious gift.
🐣The Crazy Celt 💚